You don't have to stop at 3, you can go to 10.

Sometimes, unexplainable and unavoidable things happen.

When these things happen - what do we do? Do we panic? Do we fill our hearts with hate and our thoughts with madness? At first, it seems like those are the only two emotions we could possibly ever feel in such a situation. But then, you take a step back. It's so much harder to be angry about things you cannot fix or explain. It's so much more work to continuously feel hurt, betrayed or whatever the feeling may be.

I will be the first to admit that I have a very hard time letting things go - but I'm coming to the realization that the things, situations and people that are out to hurt you and out to get you aren't even worth the time and effort it takes into being upset at them.

Today, I am thanking God for my blessings in all of their various forms. Today, I am going to look at the world through my spiritual eyes and not my worldly eyes. Today I understand that this life is temporary and a better life is waiting for me. I am going to try and rid myself of the feelings of contention- I am filling my heart and actions with good intentions. It's times like these where I am glad to have the compass of the gospel in my life. I cannot imagine how I would get myself through my most trying times without it.

Today I am thankful for the people who lift me up.
Today I am thankful to be blessed with "divine DNA" from our creator that allows me to act in a way pleasing to our father in heaven.

Today- I am trying to be like Jesus.
And if it turns out in the end that God is all I have, that's fine. God is all I need.

English Major on strike.

I think I should have stuck with dental school.
One more semester of science and math classes and I could apply.

I always loved the idea of being a dentist. I am good enough to be a dentist. I'm even smart enough.

Truth be told - I'm tired of defending my major.

Person: "What are you going to school for?"
Me: "English."
Person: "...Oh."
Me: "and secondary education."
Person: "You want to be a teacher!"
Me: "yes."
Person: "I have a friend like you. She's in Med School."

....

I feel like it's never good enough - the English major. The teaching plan. I'm tired of feeling ashamed and inadequate - like somehow being an English teacher is an unworthy cause.

Sometimes the convos go:
Person: "What's your major?"
Me: "English... and secondary ed."
Person: "You know, 3 out of every 5 teachers doesn't make it through the first 5 years. They quit or work outside the realm of education."

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What are you trying to say? That you think I'm one of them? That I'm not strong, smart, tall, bold or brave enough? What will make you happy, people?

Maybe I will just go to dental school... and when I do - you better hope you don't end up at my practice. I might just forget to inject your lips with lidocaine.

Rah!

Nothing is scarier than feeling like someone stole your diary.

Forget their words, Love
Everyone is lying through their teeth to you
Pick up the pieces of yourself
that you've left scattered on the floor
All of those empty promises and words
they'll come together to form a song that
you've been singing your whole life

We've all seen bad days
but somehow you've gotten more than most
There are days where the rain beats down
and you've been caught with no umbrella
but the sun always breaks through
when you smile.

Can I protect you? Somehow I don't think
anybody can - though we all want to.
Can I love you? Will you let me if you try?
or does this scare you? Is that the reason
why that fear is in your eyes?

Forget their looks, Love.
No matter what you do, they'll judge you anyway
Put that face on; the one you keep masked
behind the rest.
All of those angry stares and hollow eyes
they have no clue what you've seen
I bet they'd cry to be where you have been
Forget the looks, Love.

Can you feel the sunlight?
It's a sign that only good things are to come-
if you let them.
There's no more time to close the doors
no time to run, no one can hurt you.

Look at have you've grown
and who you've become
- and yet - in the end I still struggle to find
words for you, friend.

Just look ahead, love.
Just turn your head, love.
Don't look into their eyes or mind their open lies

Forget the world love
Forget
Forget, love.